Hey guys.  Long time no see.  I havent made it to see any of you.  This last saturday I was busy with family needs.  I couldnt make it to either erins or crams...and Im sorry.  It doesnt mean I dont want you to invite me to your next get together, it just means I was busy with life shit and couldnt make to hang out.  I want to though, I do not want to loose anymore friends then I have already!  Life is crazy right now.  Im trying to get my brother (charlie) to come live with me so I can take care of him full time.  This is a big deal and my family isnt supporting me fully.  My wife is giving 110% toward the deal.  Its my uncle and his family.  They cant see that if charlie came to live with me that his life would be better as a whole.  My uncle still thinks of me as a child.  Im nearing 26 and have 2 kids of my own.  I have a lot to learn but I think I do good. 

Cool stuff in my life... I got the new Avenged Sevenfold CD.  My favorite song is "Brompton cocktail lost".  It is pretty bad ass song.   My new baby ella is getting bigger.  She is so much diffrent the dessie.  Its cool to see there little diffrences. 

Well I got jet Im at work.  I will talk to you all later.  Im going to call erin and cram this week and explain everything.  Save a little face.   

Later people, 

bizgat

lost track again!

I don't know what it is about life that some times just brings me down.  I get depressed over any failure, even if I had little to do with it failing.  I just wonder WTF I'm doing on this planet.  I could work the rest of my life at tyson. 

I want to learn to Fight MMA.  I should have the time.  I just lack the motivation.  I need a teacher who needs me more then I need him.  Some one to hound me all the time and not give up on my ass.  Gary and erin are trying to teach me.  I'm just so damn unmotivated until I get to where I'm going and start working out.   Feels like some invisible force is sitting my chest holding me back. 

I'm treating xanga like my journal.

Currently Reading Descent of Angels (The Horus Heresy) By Mitchell Scanlon see related

Primarchs my opinion!

I've been reading a lot about the primarchs.  My favorite is still Space wolves. Leman Russ.  There are many that I like.  Many that take after my own heart.  Such as Ferrus Manus of the Iron hands, damn fulgrim damn him to hell.  I mean Ferrus was really fight two people his brother and the demon in the sword.  I also like the White scars primarch Jaghatai Khan.  I think Magnus the Red got the shaft by the emperor, kind pisses me off.  Cause he could have kicked a lot of ass for the loyalist.  I think the Ultramarines are overrated enough said... lol.  Sanguinius and Blood angles are a lot like my Space wolves.. Kick ass and take names.  Although I would be damn for saying it... the Dark Angles also Rock a lot of face.  Lion El'jonson is one bad mama jama.  I would like to think that those two brothers made up.  Although The Lion Sucker punched Russ..that cheap bitch.  The rest of the primarchs both Loyalist and Turncoats have there good points, but they just cant match up to Leman Russ... Pwned NOOBS!  I was fairly depressed that Russ played such a small part of the Horus heresy.  Kicking Magnus's ass, but I've already told you how I feel about that.  Thats one of the emperors worst mistakes.  He shouldn't have unleashed the wolves on Magnus.  Should have sent someone with a little more self restraint.  Anyway I'm done for now.. I will post more later.    BTW  If you haven't read about the Space wolves : 13th Company you should.  OMG essence of bad ass. 

Im also tring to learn how to sign.  On a RL Note.

Later biz